Summer '09
I had put on a Karl Lagerfeld sweater that I bought a few months ago (size Medium) and it fit perfectly (with a little room to boot). I mention Lagerfeld because he just so happened to say a few years ago that he does not design clothing for fat people, only skinny people.
So imagine my surprise that I wasn’t in a size Large Lagerfeld. I was in a Medium. 🙂 That’s about as happy as I’ve been since I was in Neiman Marcus trying on a smaller size in Burberry just last month while I was in Las Vegas.
Ok, so I love designer clothing. I was just mentioning to someone this morning that I used to spend $1000 a month in food (it’s what happens when you eat out all of the time). Now, my eating out budget is around $50/month. So that frees up a lot of my hard earned dollars so that I can start to buy a few items that once upon a time was so far out of my budget that I laughed at the thought of a $1500 purse.
It’s amazing that a huge change in my lifestyle could actually make me sit back and think about how I couldn’t afford the little luxuries in life to now all of a sudden realizing that I can afford those things today. It’s the little things that can make you happy sometimes.
As I go through my journey for my book project (and myself) I am really starting to realize how a simple thing like a designer Valentino dress could really depress me. Karl Lagerfeld saying that he doesn’t design clothing for fat people…actually fat people repulsed him…
For a person who loves fashion, it is really difficult to be outside of the range of sizes that designers cater to. It can really make you unhappy with yourself and your life.
When I was fresh out of college, I used to work for a political magazine editor/consultant. I was surrounded by so much luxury that it really sucked that I couldn’t afford those things back then on a measley little salary. Throw in the fact that I couldn’t fit into their biggest size and you can say that could put any fashionista into severe depression.
Ten years later, new city, new job, new lifestyle…and an opportunity to be able to FINALLY wear the clothes and designers I always dreamed of wearing…and you can say I’m one happy chica in NYC.
So I’m sharing a few of the happier more artistic photos from this summer…and P.S. still nowhere close to the goal weight…but losing the inches and getting closer each day to possibly being cleared to workout again (which I pray happens next week so I can start getting into bikini shape for Greece in October)!
At any rate, this is an important part of the Book Project as we see one little bit of unhappiness drop to the wayside along this long road I’m traveling on.
