Editor’s Letter: Taking Chances to Live Every Dream

All photos on this post©️ 2025 Michelle Kenneth

Your eyes do not deceive you. Things look a little different around here. It was finally time to change the site to align with the new direction I am taking in life.

I decided to take my Conde Nast College training and create the site they trained me to make.

Sure. There have been a few false starts over the years, but I kept coming right back to this site. The bones are there, I just have to clean it up and then put out the content I’ve been wanting to put out for years.

Bear with me as I realign this site. I’m a one woman show right now.

So why the change?

There are a lot of reasons, but let’s start with the beginning.

I am turning 50 this year. That weighed heavily on my mind as I started to map out what I wanted my 2026 to look like. Then, I thought about what I wanted my life to look like post-50. That’s when I decided it was time to live the rest of my life living my dreams, rather than putting them off.

Time is running out and I can see that. So I moved to realign my life to the dreams I’ve been telling myself, someday. I started by changing my wardrobe because I wanted to have a rocker chic fashionista look. I changed my hair. I probably should have gone blonde (or partial blonde) years ago. [I can’t tell you how many men noticed.]

I requested a transfer to a European office. It was approved.

When I asked myself what I wanted to do to ring in my 50th birthday, I pondered if I should throw myself a party and invite all of my friends. If I did that, where would we party? How much would that cost? Or maybe I should go to France and spend a month there.

Well, the universe was listening and chose for me.

In March, my congressperson contacted me just a couple of weeks after ICE tried to run me down with their vehicle. She told me that she was flooding my town with $350,000 to help with security measures during FIFA. Not only that, but most of the security would be around my building where I live. She suggested that I go on a long vacation while FIFA was in town. It was a warning.

As time moved on, the governor started warning people to either stay home or go on vacation. The NYC mayor followed with similar advice. NJ Transit raised their transit prices to $100 each way. The governor threatened that surge pricing of over $200 would be in effect for ride shares.

Most people didn’t pick up on what I was picking up on. They believe this is all a grift. Local government is trying to make as much money as possible off of this. But that’s not what I’m seeing. What exactly did my congressperson say? Extra security specifically around my building just two weeks after ICE tried to run me down. Extra security and tech for my neighborhood.

The grift is actually a deterrent. They’re trying to say it is not safe here. Don’t come. Their first thoughts are on keeping the people of NYC/NJ safe. The money flooding into these towns are for extra security to protect the residents. Protect them from FIFA and the people attending? No. This is to protect them from being picked up by ICE, because ICE is not going to discriminate who is an American and who is not.

Psychics have been predicting for months that an ‘event’ will happen in the month of June. One psychic posted on Threads that it had something to do with a sporting event on June 22 in Philadelphia. That is when a commenter said there was an actual game happening that day in Philly. A FIFA game. France v. Iraq.

If the government is hearing real chatter of this, it would explain why the so-called grift is happening. It’s to deter people from coming to the games. But keep in mind, their first priority is to protect their own people. People from all over the world coming in after the warnings that you shouldn’t, I get why they want people to pay exorbitant amounts. It’s the price to protect you for not picking up on the warnings.

Keeping all of this in mind, I decided to take the governor and congressperson up on their advice. I’m taking Matthew (the Maine Coon cat) and we’re heading to France. We’ll be in France (for a month) for my 50th birthday. So the universe made the decision for me… I’m celebrating my half a century with Matthew in Paris. We’ll also head to Cannes for a long weekend. Maybe even some points around France just to get out of Paris.

Since I don’t need to do the touristy stuff (maybe take Matthew to the Eiffel Tower & Montmartre for photos), we’re just going to spend most of our time in the gardens or in the apartment so I can write. Actually, I’m going to try to simulate what a full-time writing and photography life would look like for us in Paris. That is, if I were to decide to go into semi-retirement at the end of the year. Our Cannes trip isn’t just relaxation on the beach. It’s recognizance to find property to buy, maybe even open up a bookstore. Why? Because I’ve always wanted to retire to the South of France.

Semi-retirement is what happens if, for some reason, the transfer to the Paris office doesn’t come through. Truth be told, I think the universe is going to choose semi-retirement for me. Why? Because writing and doing photography full-time is the dream. So why not live out the rest of this lifetime living the dream?

This now brings us to why this site is finally moving in a new direction.

Whether I am in the US half the year or in France full-time, I still need to generate a US-based income. That income comes in the form of my writing from this site, Substack, and wherever I may publish. The photographs will be sold in both France and the US. We’ll also have some projects featuring Matthew and our travels.

I tell people that they should always have 7 different streams of income coming in at all times. I have the 7 for the US. I’ll be working on the 7 for my euro-based income.

That, being said, means I will be investing more time into PerfectionistWannabe.com. There will be books, travel information, the arts, film, Maine Coon information, recipes, fashion, expat life, etc. I almost didn’t include the food part of this journey, but then I remembered that a certain Oscar winner loves my recipes. He still hits up this site regularly. He really likes those Portuguese Ribs.

So bear with me as I continue to clean up the site and add new content. While I’m in Paris next month, I’ll be able to add more content frequently and you’ll be able to keep up to date with our adventures around France.

The Divine Flames

On Substack, I sometimes share soulmate stories both personal and fictional to go along with the fantasy book I’m currently writing. I find the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine story to be very interesting. I follow several people that discuss this because unfortunately for me, I am a Divine Feminine who found her soulmate randomly two years ago.

The soulmate story is not one I recommend to anyone. It is the absolute worst love story ever. EVER! Stories of fate between lovers… stamp it with the word TRAGEDY. Romeo and Juliet. Gilgamesh and Enkidu. Just tragic stories.

In this lifetime, and because it is the apocalypse, the Divine Feminine/Masculine story has been triggered. DFs have been awakened and they’ve been trying to get DM to wake up so that the apocalypse can end. The struggles the entire collective are having is insane. The fact that we are all going through the exact same thing at the exact same time is unreal. Who knew this happened?

So I did something very Cancer-like. I saw the collective spiraling. I looked at my Divine Masculine. He’s doing the exact same thing all of the other DMs are doing. So I said, yeah, I’m out. Good luck, y’all.

Time is of the essence and that is just not something I have a lot of. I saw in meditation that he had put up a wall around himself to prevent me from getting in. He built it to protect the life he created. But the funny thing is, that’s not what this wall does. I’m already there, inside his heart and soul. He has only built a wall that prevents him from moving forward in life.

A DF is going to look at that wall, respect his decision to keep her out, and just walk away. She can do this journey alone. She’s not going to try to tear down those walls. He built that wall. He needs to take it down so that he can move forward on his path in life. But he needs to do that himself. He needs to do the work. He is only sabotaging himself from getting the one thing his soul has been secretly wishing for.

After seeing the wall, I cut him off. No access. Why? Because I need him to wake the fuck up. This is not a game. The longer the DM takes to work on themselves, the longer this apocalypse crap plays out. Frankly, I am tired of the destruction. Why do you think I’m leaving and going to France to live out my days staying away from the chaos?

I saw this post this morning from iamalyssamalone on Threads. This resonated on what happens when a DF walks away. She did it for a reason. It was to wake him up. He needs to work on himself. He needs to embrace his soul-truth, and not cater to what everyone expects him to be, especially when it no longer resonates with who he is anymore.

He met his soulmate. That world he had before her is never going to be the same. The universe did this for a reason. There’s something much bigger going on in the grander scheme of things than just the day to day structures we lived in. Our world is not the same as it was a month ago. Everything has changed. Fate is knocking at your door. Will you answer?